If we can’t have a descent cup of coffee together…
If we can’t simply laugh and talk…
If we can’t simply do favors…
If we can’t explain why I go beyond…
If we can’t be proud of this…
If we can’t say what we are….
If we can’t escape from where we are…
I can’t do this anymore. Leave me alone!
I, rise and shine to the warmth of sun rays knowing there is a million things expected from me before sun set. I yawn myself questioning my senses, what can I expect from the country, family, friends and everything else.
I have no need or desire to be impressive yet a need for understanding. As unique as every individual, I have my very episode of life too, that isn’t the same as any of you. So don’t judge me.
I know you expect me to be your own age or your own mentality. I grew up, I stood before him, I walked on my own feet and now I can’t go skinny dipping with you. I am sorry.
I know you expect me to be carefree. No darling, I lost the trust of my parents too many times to be carefree again. I am warm around them. I am one of them and now I can’t go on bitching on my life.
I know you expect me to be married again. I’ve lost my faith in love and marriage and worst in guys. I miss the romantic walks or the dinners. But it still hurts so bad that I have a fear of even trying.
I know you expect me not to make any mistakes. But I am human and not super hero functional and that makes me a normal human being. So I am sorry if I can’t be in two places at once.
I know all your expectations is meant for a good relationship between you and me. But I am just very tired. So, let me walk away and live my own expectation.
It was one fine night; I stood beside Terry, when he asked me why I never became a Journalist and chose to work around them. Well, terry hasn’t definitely read my blog. I have one quality that a journalist can’t be. I express my opinion. I say what I feel. I say what my perception is. I am a strong believer in me. However, today’s journalism is bullshit where I see it from. No journalist in this country writes facts but only what their opinion is. No journalist in this country reads the real scenario but his political belief. No journalist in this country expresses the truth but his religious view. No journalist in this country researchers but makes ridiculous accusation. No journalist in this country loves the nation but either the ruling or the opposition. No journalist loves diplomacy but democracy.
Those who tune in the radio, TV or internet for news has the burden of reading 5 article of one story to find the real picture. Those who tune into just one medium and read the news are misled or confused.
I feel ashamed to be a part of media today, for the reasons that, journalists are unprofessional, unethical and egocentric. They seem to believe that they are very powerful. Indeed they are. They are the people who control the 4th pillar of democracy. They are the watchdog of the 3 powers. They are the people who are there to make everybody else responsible. But are they (except you) doing it? Are they responsible enough to make us all responsible?
